Random Thoughts

I have a bunch of thoughts running through my head tonight and so I am going to lay them out....
First, I need spring and summer here quick. I need to be able to get on the HOG and ride. I need to ride with my brothers in the club. I guess you can say its cabin fever or something, but a ride would do me good.
Second, I can't help but feel like a fat ass. I broke 200 lbs. again. I know some of you can't believe I am complaining about this. But when you eat a large pizza by yourself tell me you wouldn't be thinking the same thing. One of the downfalls of moving out this far(yes my choice) was not being able to go and play b-ball on Thursdays and on Saturdays. That was most of my exercise during the winter. One of the reasons I feel this way is I lost 30lbs. last year and kept it off for most of the year. I also had to go up a notch on my belt. That really puts is into perspective, that morning you realize that you have a belly.
Third, I really couldn't give a rat's ass about the inauguration of the president today or the speech or anything he had to say.
Fourth, I got to go to the Utah Utes celebration parade and it was awesome. Got to see the sugar bowl trophy and see all the players that made this years team unforgettable. Getting out of work to go and see it was the best part. The streets were crowded with Ute fans young and old. The school has a great recruiting class coming in and should compete for another BCS run next year.
Fifth, have you ever wanted to just escape and put yourself in a hole or something? I feel that way today. I just want to get away and clear my head, rethink who I am. I have lost myself lately and don't honestly know who I am anymore. I feel as if I am adrift at sea just floating to no where.
Sixth, So for those of you who want to know who my team is...well as if you couldn't guess...I am a Running Ute again. Call me whatever you want (fair weather fan, band wagoner) or tell me "I
disappointed in you"...once again ask me if I care. I am pretty sure you won't like the answer I give you either.
Finally, I saw my brother in law at the parade and really wanted to go up to him and ask how he was and how my sister was doing. But I didn't get the chance with all the thousands of people out there. I am really over it and could care less about the past. Some people would think screw them, but not me. They could show up to my house tomorrow and it would be like nothing ever happened. I honestly love them both and would relish the opportunity to just say hello and give my sister a hug and shake the mans hand that has made her happy. In the end that's all I have ever asked from my brother in laws was to make them happy. Some of you might have a different opinion but once again I don't care. I wish I had an email address or something just to tell them how my family is and that things have changed from the last time we saw each other and to tell them that they will always be welcome and I would be available whenever they need it. After all they are family no matter what happened.
Thanks for making it through this post I know it was a little dark but where else can I get these things out. Later